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Name: Kristina
Country: United States
State: Indiana
Metro: Indianapolis
Gender: Female
Interests: Loving and serving God, hanging out with friends, burning things, joking around, helping others, playing with kids, sleeping, eating chocolate, drinking chocolate, baking things with chocolate it them. Okay most of this is random. Being random, playing Euchre, drawing, drama, laughing, drinking milk, driving around to think and pray which makes my parents and friends worry cause they don't know where I am. I have never ever had a horse phase like most girls, but tried to play along so as not to offend. I don't like shopping because it's boring and saps your strength. Shoe shopping is the worst because I have wide feet, and nothing fits them. I used to like to debate a lot but I got tired of it honestly prolly because I started to come across opponents who actually knew how to defend their views and would fight until the death for them. Whereas I liked less serious debates which more resembled teasing. I like to write too much and following weird trains of thoughts, I like to mock th
Occupation: Chick-fil-A worker
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Member Since:
11/12/2005
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| God is Amazing. Why do we so often push Him to the back of our lives and minds? God I'm sorry. Let's just escape You and me. Let's just run off my Love and forget the world around us. (Not to say we don't have to live out our faith in the world.) Let me be still in Your love and trust You to care for the universe, and my small world. Let me refocus on Your beauty, memorize Your face, Your eyes. Let me be astonished by Your wisdom and awed by Your love, oh God my Love and King. God let us escape, so that I can truly focus on You and appreciate Your wondrous ways. Let us share our hearts and re-establish our love, away, from the day-to-day distractions the somehow blind me, somehow drain me of the life and joy that You fill me with. Remove the callouses from my heart, and the scales from my eyes so that I may once again lose my breath when You enter the room. So that whenever I see, hear, or feel Your presence, my heart begins to rush about in place, trying to burst for excitement. God, may I once again be thrilled by Your every word, every declaration of love to mankind and myself. Lord, let me be bedazzled by Your love. Not in an artificial way. Not in a way where I need men to dress You up in new ways for me to find You beautiful, But that I could fully appreciate who You are, for who You are. No makeup necessary. I can love all the little things about You, even those I already know, even those I am accustomed too. Because there is nothing about You which is not startlingly beautiful, remarkably loving, and strong, and just. And if I fail to see it due to familiarity, than that is my loss, not a loss in who You are. Let me see You again with the eyes of a new lover, yet with the depth of love that only comes about through time. Let me love You as I have never loved before, and let me be utterly changed by it. Thank You my Love.
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| God, I don't understand where You are leading, what I am thinking or feeling. I don't understand how I can be used by You with all my faults. How I can learn to become more like You with my faulty mindsets. I don't get why life can seem so amazing at some points and so unfair and unjust at others. But I trust You. I trust that You know what You are doing and where You are leading. I trust that You can care for and heal me even when I confuse myself and mess up. I trust that You can care for me, my friends, and my family despite the injustices and hurts that threaten us. I trust that You can shape us more into Your image and change our thought patterns and tempers as we follow You, because You are Almighty God and for some reason You love us faithfully.
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| "Seriously, why don't you just give up? Even when you're doing your best, you still suck at serving Him. You know tons of people who have given up on Him. They realized how impracticable He can be. He always asks you to do the stupidest things. Do you really want Him in control of your life?
Even if He is this awesome, loving whatever, you can't keep His voice and your own voice straight half the time. It would easier to just not try. Think of all the frustration you could avoid. You don't have to flat out reject Him. Of course not. Just take a few steps back. Be good, follow His commandments, love others, just don't try to hear His voice, ok? He'll just ruin everything by demanding the illogical. Then you'll feel horrible when you don't obey. Which of course you won't. We both know you're horrible at that.
Better to let the other people serve Him, who know what they're doing, and are capable of keeping their promises to serve Him. If you don't try then you won't have to fail, over, and over, and over again. Man, He must be tired of you. You, who think you could serve Him in the mission field, ha! Just remeber how good it felt when you weren't constantly reminded how much you suck. We both know the only way that's going to happen is if you're satified with where you are now and don't try anything stupid.
Maybe all the people who are falling apart around you are the wise ones, because they've realized that it's futile to try anymore. You were all so idealistic in your youth. But they've grown up. They've figured it out. You should join them, encourage you're other friends to join them as well. It would sure make my job easier."
This is the basic arguement that the devil has been trying to use on me recently. Maybe on some of you too. Remember, he isn't called the "father of lies" for nothing. He will convince you to follow his will for your life by whatever means necessary. The devil and his followers (demon, or human) will tear you apart so that you do not trust yourself, God, friends, or family.
The enemy wants us all at the point where we only listen to him, instead of Jesus Christ our Lord, and His Spirit of truth which calls out to us. Let's all remember, or remind each other of, truth. Because, TRUTH is what sets us free.
God loves us despite our failings. It is not too late to follow Him. And it's okay if we don't get everything right the first time. Following God is a continual learning process. Learning to forgive when we, or people we love, are betrayed in ways we thought unimaginable. Learning to hear God's voice clearly, and growing in the faith to follow what He says, both in the little things, and the big. Learning to forgive ourselves when we mess up, and trust that by God's grace we are growing into more holy servants. That He will finish, or perfect, the work which He started in our hearts.
And as we see those along our side fall. We must still trust that God is in control. All we can do is love them, forgive them, pray for them, and remain open and listening to the Spirit of God. God will take care of the rest.
I love you guys, my brothers and sisters. May God bless you and care for you all and speak truth constantly into your ear. Do not pay attention to the enemy, for he and his followers will soon enough be silenced and he's just desperate for us to listen to him before he can talk no longer.
Please Pray for truth, faith, hope, and love for all the saints. We all need it.
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| Hey, so I love the new school. But I'm really sick right now. I haven't been to work or class since... Tuesday! My head might explode. But I can't just lay here and sleep anymore, I'm soo bored. But too tired and weak to really do anything... oh well. Hey, do any of you guys still use xanga? Man, I miss the good old xanga days. Facebook just isn't as "deep." Just a lot of pictures and poking. Xanga's where it's at. yeah. okay, I should sleep. Bye suckas!
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| So I'm heading off to the new school. whoot!
Anyway, last weekend my friends and I finally did something we had been planning for years. We had our very own Iron Chef competition. It was awesome. It was Nathan, Josh, Laura, and Sarah vs. Joanna C., Lindsay, Mike, and me. The secret ingredient was.... drum roll.... garbanzo beans!!!!!! (also known as chick peas.) Anyway both teams made hummus and soup, though one soup was tomato base and the other broth. Then one team made savory crepes out of garbanzo bean flour and filled them with grilled lamb and vegetables and provided a white sort of cheesy sauce to go over them. My team's main course was stuffed peppers and tomatoes (I actually did not make or eat any of these so I don't know what else was inside them besides the beans, but I was told they were outstanding!) Anyway, our dessert was pretty good. It was deep fried pasties made with the same flour as the other team's crepes covered with cinnamon and sugar and sweet cooked apples, kinda like apple pie, but better.
But the deep fryer broke midway so some were cooked in a pan and there was some inconsistency as some were more or less cooked. However, the other team's dessert would have conquered ours no matter how well we did. They made 'rice' pudding with garbanzo beans instead of rice. It was like the way rice pudding was always meant to be. My brother made it actually... he really has awesome natural cooking instincts. I mean I'm a good baker, and an okay cook, but Josh, wow. He could be a chef, if he wanted to. He can just taste something and know what it needs. Like he'll taste soup and be like, it needs a bit of cinnamon. And people will be like "Really? Cinnamon in a broth based soup, I don't know, sounds questionable." And he'll put it in and it'll be twice as good as before. He thinks of the things other people don't, and is daring enough to blend all sorts of insane spices to perfection.
But despite the fact that his dessert rocked, my team won! Because we won 2out of 3 of the categories, which were taste, presentation, and use of grabanzo beans. (we won the last two.) ^_^ Yeah! I hope we do it again some time even though we both went hours over the time limit. We're just not as quick as those Iron Chefs... but with their magical powers and steroids it just wouldn't be a fair comparison. Anyway, hopefully next time I'll get to work more in the same room as the other chefs. I spent most my time in a side room doing "presentation" because they didn't want me cooking anything... ^_^ hehehe just kidding it's cause I like art and decorating and that sort of crap.
Anyway, I encourage everyone else to either try having their own Iron Chef or to at least watch it on TV.
Back to packing.
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